Years have passed, doubtful you recognize me. You changed my life, reshaped my destiny.
I still think about you every day, more so lately. Walls are closing in, time is running out. I feel this in my bones. No, I'm not injured, or sick, at least not that I know. I am not old enough to be concerned about dropping dead, though it is possible. I cannot shake this feeling of impending doom. Not just for myself, but for us all. So I would like to get a few things off my chest before it is too late. It wasn't possible back then, but I can speak clearly now, and I hope you'll understand.
I never meant you any harm.
If I have regrets in this life, it's that I couldn't keep you closer, that I was not good enough for you to be around.
You taught me things, so many things... Some were simple, all were needed.
You are my greatest triumph. It was too brief, but beside you I walked amongst the gods.
You granted the confidence I needed so desparately before you came along. Perhaps too much... but I would rather be this way, than the way I was before.
Because of you, I am so much stronger now. I survived the things that came after. You made sure I was ready.
You proved that life can be worth so much more than living.
You were the light I needed to see.
The most important lesson you taught, to let go. It's not that there was much left to hold on to in the end. Memories, and cold ashes. Despite the pain, you were the thing I least wanted to let go of. But there was no choice, and I let go. And letting you go, made everything I was stuck on so much easier to let go of...
The totality of our last meeting, of the last time you actually spoke to me, cuts deeper every day. I didn't understand why, but I now know it's better this way. The pain is dull, but in your absence it continues to grow. It would not get better, I will carry it for the rest of my days.
Yet here we are. With time running out, I just want to say thank you, before it is too late. Thank you for the things you did for me, the light, and for the lessons you delivered. You were right, it did work out for the best.
I hope you know, that despite it all... I am forever yours!
I still think about you every day, more so lately. Walls are closing in, time is running out. I feel this in my bones. No, I'm not injured, or sick, at least not that I know. I am not old enough to be concerned about dropping dead, though it is possible. I cannot shake this feeling of impending doom. Not just for myself, but for us all. So I would like to get a few things off my chest before it is too late. It wasn't possible back then, but I can speak clearly now, and I hope you'll understand.
I never meant you any harm.
If I have regrets in this life, it's that I couldn't keep you closer, that I was not good enough for you to be around.
You taught me things, so many things... Some were simple, all were needed.
You are my greatest triumph. It was too brief, but beside you I walked amongst the gods.
You granted the confidence I needed so desparately before you came along. Perhaps too much... but I would rather be this way, than the way I was before.
Because of you, I am so much stronger now. I survived the things that came after. You made sure I was ready.
You proved that life can be worth so much more than living.
You were the light I needed to see.
The most important lesson you taught, to let go. It's not that there was much left to hold on to in the end. Memories, and cold ashes. Despite the pain, you were the thing I least wanted to let go of. But there was no choice, and I let go. And letting you go, made everything I was stuck on so much easier to let go of...
The totality of our last meeting, of the last time you actually spoke to me, cuts deeper every day. I didn't understand why, but I now know it's better this way. The pain is dull, but in your absence it continues to grow. It would not get better, I will carry it for the rest of my days.
Yet here we are. With time running out, I just want to say thank you, before it is too late. Thank you for the things you did for me, the light, and for the lessons you delivered. You were right, it did work out for the best.
I hope you know, that despite it all... I am forever yours!
Simple ink sketch, turned into major painting. Memories flooded in as I worked on this. July 2025! I don't do WIPs as much these days. I don't think people are interested, but I still like drawing. If you think the passage above is written for you, you may be right...
