My dear friend,
Years have passed, you changed my life, reshaped my destiny, but I doubt you'd recognize me.
I still think about you every day, more so lately. I feel it in my bones, the walls are closing in and time is running out. No, I'm not injured, or sick, at least not that I know. I am not old enough to be concerned about dropping dead, though anything is possible. I cannot shake this feeling of impending doom, not just for myself, but for us all. So I'd like to get a few things off my chest before it's too late. It wasn't possible before, but I can speak clearly now, and I hope you'll understand.
I never meant you any harm.
If I have regrets in this life, it's that I couldn't keep you closer, that I was not good enough for you to be around.
You taught me things, so many things... Some were simple, all were needed.
You are my greatest triumph. It was brief, but beside you I felt as if I walked amongst the gods.
You granted the confidence I needed so desparately before you came along. Perhaps too much... but I would rather be this way, than the way I was before.
Because of you, I am so much stronger now. I survived the things that came after. You made sure I was ready.
You proved that life can be worth so much more than living.
You were the light I needed to see.
The most important lesson you taught was to let go. It's not that there was much left to hold on to in the end. Memories, cold ashes, gloaming darkness, and persistent agony remained once you were gone. Despite the pain, you were the thing I least wanted to let go of. But there was no choice, and I had to let go. This made everything I was stuck on later so much easeir to deal with.
The things you said, the last time you spoke to me, cut deeper every day. You needed an excuse, but it still hurts so much. I know it's better this way, but I was consumed with trying to understand why back then. Today the pain is dull, but in your absence it continues to grow. It won't get better, I will carry it for the rest of my days.
Things will never be the same again and nothing can be done to change it.
Yet here we are. With time running out, I just want to say thank you, before it is too late. Thank you for the things you did for me, the light, and for the lessons you delivered. You were right, this is what was meant to be.
I hope you know, that despite it all... I am forever yours!
Years have passed, you changed my life, reshaped my destiny, but I doubt you'd recognize me.
I still think about you every day, more so lately. I feel it in my bones, the walls are closing in and time is running out. No, I'm not injured, or sick, at least not that I know. I am not old enough to be concerned about dropping dead, though anything is possible. I cannot shake this feeling of impending doom, not just for myself, but for us all. So I'd like to get a few things off my chest before it's too late. It wasn't possible before, but I can speak clearly now, and I hope you'll understand.
I never meant you any harm.
If I have regrets in this life, it's that I couldn't keep you closer, that I was not good enough for you to be around.
You taught me things, so many things... Some were simple, all were needed.
You are my greatest triumph. It was brief, but beside you I felt as if I walked amongst the gods.
You granted the confidence I needed so desparately before you came along. Perhaps too much... but I would rather be this way, than the way I was before.
Because of you, I am so much stronger now. I survived the things that came after. You made sure I was ready.
You proved that life can be worth so much more than living.
You were the light I needed to see.
The most important lesson you taught was to let go. It's not that there was much left to hold on to in the end. Memories, cold ashes, gloaming darkness, and persistent agony remained once you were gone. Despite the pain, you were the thing I least wanted to let go of. But there was no choice, and I had to let go. This made everything I was stuck on later so much easeir to deal with.
The things you said, the last time you spoke to me, cut deeper every day. You needed an excuse, but it still hurts so much. I know it's better this way, but I was consumed with trying to understand why back then. Today the pain is dull, but in your absence it continues to grow. It won't get better, I will carry it for the rest of my days.
Things will never be the same again and nothing can be done to change it.
Yet here we are. With time running out, I just want to say thank you, before it is too late. Thank you for the things you did for me, the light, and for the lessons you delivered. You were right, this is what was meant to be.
I hope you know, that despite it all... I am forever yours!
Memories flooded in as I worked on this. Done in July 2025!
I don't do WIPs as much these days. I don't think people are interested, but I still like them.
If you think the passage above is written for you, you may be right...
I don't do WIPs as much these days. I don't think people are interested, but I still like them.
If you think the passage above is written for you, you may be right...